Election and Life

David is holding the twins and sleeping, Harmony is coloring, and I am here. I have a big mountain of laundry I should be folding, but I just needed to do something with some of the thoughts that have been jumping around in my head lately.

Here we are on Election Eve. Tomorrow we will all (hopefully you will!) vote. Our nation and our world is at a point in time like no other. I could go on and on about the presidential candidate Barack Obama. The thought of this man leading our country sends shivers up my back. His questionable past, his secretiveness on personal issues and records, his lack of knowledge of American History and geography, his views, and many other factors make him someone that should not even be considered for presidency... but tomorrow blinded people will cast their vote towards "change they can believe in". Obama's "change" for this country is not something I want to see.

As I look around at what is going on in our nation and world today, I am amazed. I'm amazed that I am actually living in the "end times." The wickedness in our world is sickening. We in America have always enjoyed our religious freedom. There are muslim extremists who wish to strip our freedom away and enforce their religion on us. We don't know what the future will hold. We may face serious persecution for our Christianity some day. When I look at my beautiful 3 1/2 year old daughter and my new twins, I just feel like holding them in an embrace that would shield them from ever even realizing the wickedness in our world. Unfortunately, even though I am amazed at the love I feel for them, I can not change what they may face in the future. I know that this may all sound crazy or really emotional. I do feel a lot of emotion about it. When I look at my childhood... I remember being a little brat, but besides that, I love to remember the good times, like our family traditions, the warm feelings that holidays brought, the day to day carefree life that kids have the privilege of experiencing. Then I look at my teenage years. Things didn't feel carefree for me. Infact, I felt such a heavy load in those years, I attempted to commit suicide. For me, and in my teenage eyes, I did not see anything worth living for. Somehow, God kept His hand on my life and I made my way through very rough waters. As those teenage years began to close, I came to a crossroads of decision. Would I follow God completely and allow Him to heal me as a broken, hurting person? Or should I choose a path of my own? I chose God. He gave me such meaning to my life. He filled me with such joy. He went on to lead my life. He eventually blessed me with David, our ministry, and our 3 kids. To be honest... I really love my life. That in itself is an absolute miracle considering my past. I love my husband, my house, the precious Indian people we have ministered to, my 3 amazing kids, and the the everyday basic routine, as busy and as difficult as it is sometimes to care for 2 newborns and a little girl! Having said that, I want God to help me view and hold onto my life exactly the way He wants me to. I don't want to love things any less, but I need to realize that this life is very temporary. It's a flash compared to eternity. I want to live in such a way that my kids will see the value of serving God... even at any cost. In the last days (now) many will fall away from the faith and many will be deceived. Whatever happens... I want it settled in my soul that I'm going to serve God! God has been speaking to me about being ready for Christ's return. This is serious business! I have enjoyed viewing many of my former college classmates' blogs since I've gotten into blogging. Jon Earls does a good job with his and there are 2 videos on his blog that were especially interesting. I hope he doesn't mind me encouraging people to go to his blog to view them. I don't have the time to try to post them here right now. Anyway.. it's http://www.jonearls.blogspot.com/ Look at "Persecution or Great Awakening" and "How Close is the Mark". I should wrap this post up. If I can hold 2 carseats in both hands, and have a 3 year old tag along with me to the polls, I hope everyone else will get out and vote for McCain tomorrow!! Hope this post didn't bore you to death (If you even read it all, haha).